Got A Job !

After nearly 4 years, I have gotten a job ! I deliberately chose not to work, I wanted to concentrate on my venture into the world of small business ownership. I have an online store which means that I can be at home with my kids. Thats awesome right? Yes it is, but it's also extremely taxing and has driven me to the conclusion that I would rather go punch a clock somewhere to get a break from these kids of mine. They're great kids but (whew !) they're kids. I willingly surrender to the DayCare Program, babysitters, a nanny or anybody or anything that will take them off my hands. I figure this way they our relationship will improve - I'll have an opportunity to miss them and maybe I won't have to start my mornings jumping at their every beck & call. I respect and admire mothers (having apparently been one for the past two years) I am very grateful to God that he made me a Dad and that their mom is healthy and available to them. Hopefully this job thing will work out. It's one that I don't mind doing and even though the pay might not be all that it should be very spiritually fulfilling (i'm going to work at the treatment center where I was once a resident; and a pretty difficult one at that). I guess that goes to show that you really can't judge another person's desire to find recovery. If i keep that in mind maybe I'll have something to offer the guys that God will be placing in my life. Just for today I am grateful period.

Growing up ?

I have been involoved with "the program" for 3 & a half years (i relapsed and came back 2 years ago) but since i have been 'semi-sane' i haven't found it necessary to get a job. I'm not a teenager living with his folks or an adult moocher or anything - i have actually started my own business and have been making ends meet. But lately my wife has gotten a nice promotion on her job and my 'competitive nature' is kicking in telling me that although i'm happy for her, i want to get a promotion too, not to mention the extra money that we could have if i were employed full-time along with running my business part-time. So now i have decided that i am going to apply for a job at the local cable company. Even though i have been out of the work force for a few years i believe that the spiritual principles that i have been practicing so far have prepared me for this reintroduction to blue collar america. I'll admit that i have been secret laughing at people as they talk about how much they hate their jobs. I was resigned to never punch another clock again in my life. That's still my goal - i have just come to realize that maybe by working and saving it will help me to reach that point of financial security quicker. I just want to buy a handful of rental properties maybe "flip" some properties like i see people doing on TV. Maybe i am just a foolish dreamer - but Just for Today - i can pursue my goals full throttle and have faith that just about anything is possible as long as I stay clean and on this path (along with a solid plan and commitment).