Step Four ? Hah !

I haven't posted anything in about a week - been too busy living life. Lately I've been holding on with both hands -the highs astronomical, the lows - the pits of hell. The twists & turns in the road - fast & furious. A day in the life of a bi-polar schizophrenic? nope - this is me caught in the grips of step six. And they say that step four is the "make or breaker". My step four was rough indeed but at least i had heard the rumors about how 'intense' that step could be - so i was prepared for the worst. But this step here - nobody warned me (as if that could've helped). to make things worse - this ain't even my first time doing this step. This is the step that is like when they put the Shocker Things on your chest to restore your heartbeat - it's a bitch - but it'll save your life. more on this later...