Just for today...

I will be unafraid, my thoughts will be on my new associations... yeah, yeah that shit sounds so good until i consider that i am afraid, very afraid. My new associations tend to relapse more often than they stay. I am pretty uptight about making new friends around here because of this. People close to me are relapsing like wildfire. I guess this is the "side-effect" of being compassionate - I care; therefore I hurt. On the flip side I am very grateful for those people that are sticking around and with whom I have developed relationships. Just for today I will try to keep the focus on what is going well in my life, instead of what is not.