Friday, January 4, 2008

FOR THE RECORD JACKIE...

I WANT TO SAY THAT I AM SORRY. BECAUSE I REALIZE THAT I MUST'VE MADE YOU FEEL PRETTY INADEQUATE, UNLOVED AND UNAPPRECIATED. I HAD TO HAVE MADE YOU FEEL THAT WAY BECAUSE I HONESTLY FELT THAT. I BARELY LOVED YOU, DIDN'T APPRECIATE YOU AND FELT AT TIMES THAT YOU WEREN'T GOOD ENOUGH. IT HAD TO BE A DEVASTATING BLOW TO YOU BECAUSE IT WASN'T THAT WAY IN THE BEGINNING. I WAS ALL THOSE THINGS AT FIRST AND THEN I CHANGED AND YOU CONTINUED TO TRY AND YOU HELD ON. I CRY NOW NOT FOR ME BUT FOR YOU. AND I ALSO RAISE MY HAND IN THANKS AND PRAISE TO GOD FOR ALLOWING YOU TO FIND WITHIN YOURSELF THE COURAGE AND STRENGTH TO SAY "NO MORE" AND TO SEEK OUT WHAT YOUTRULY DESERVE: HAPPINESS.
JUST FOR TODAY... DREW IS COMING BACK, READY TO SHINE, EVEN BETTER THAN I WAS BEFORE AND SHOULD YOU EVER LOOK AROUND TO SEE HOW I'M DOING, I WON'T BE HARD TO FIND. JUST FOLLOW THE LIGHT...

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